[CAFE020813] Minhyuk’s feelings towards ‘The Romantic and Idol’

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보느라 맘고생(?)들 많았죠?ㅠㅠ

물론 재밌게 보신 분들도 많았겠지만…

첨부터 왜 그런 프로에 나오느냐고 속상해 하신 분들도 많았고

한달반 방송되는 중에 예쁘게 보인 모습도 있지만

후반부에 제 갈등이 계속되는 모습에 실망했다는

시청자들의 반응 때문에 염려해주신 분들도 많았고…ㅠㅠ

저는 사실 그 촬영… 정말 기분좋은 여행을 다녀온 기분이었어요.

성인이 된 후로 진학, 오디션, 연습생 생활, 데뷔, 그 후 이어져온 바빴던 활동들…

어찌보면 참 열심히 뒤돌아볼틈 없이 지내오다가 잡힌 3박4일의 제주 촬영이었거든요.

방송 컨셉상 팬들이 싫어할 수도 있다는 생각에 걱정도 했지만

막상 도착하니까 일단 그곳 공기하며 경치하며…

제작진분들도 너무 편하게 대해주시고 너무 좋은 선후배님들과 함께하게 되니 정말 꼭 MT에 온 기분이었어요!

다녀와서도 한동안 그곳에서의 즐거웠던 기억들이 맴돌 정도로 좋았어요!

(여성 출연자들과 즐거웠다는말이 아니니까 질투하기 있기? 없기!!!!!!!!!!)

 근데 막상 방송스케줄이 잡히고 방송이 시작되면서

멜로디들 맘 상해 하는 모습들을 보니까 미안해지기 시작하더니

방송에선 어떻게 비쳐질까 내심 기대반 걱정반……..

한주 한주 방송되면서 뭔가 1기와는 대조적으로 대결구도도 잡히고

시청자분들의 반응이 뜨거워지는데…

함께 출연했던 동료들에 대해 비판적인 반응들도 보이고하니까

마음이 조금씩 무거워지더라구요ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

 그치만 방송이 갈수록 화제를 모으고 시청률도 높아지고

더불어 저를 포함한 출연자들에 대한 관심도 높아지는 등

프로그램은 아주 성공적이었죠^0^

구성도 너무 짜임새 있고 영상미도 탁월하고 배경음악도 로맨틱하고

출연진들간의 긴장감까지 모든 흥행요소를 잘 갖췄다고 해야하나?

당사자인 제가 봐도 너무 찌릿찌릿하고 긴장되고, 무엇보다 너무 재밌게 보고있으니까요!!!

전 어느정도 화제의 중심에 있으면서 마음 한편에 부담감을 느끼면서도

저와 비투비의 대한 인지도가 조금은 더 많아질꺼라는 기대감에 뿌듯했어요^^

 그런데 요즘 시청자들 사이에서 제게 실망했다는 반응도 있고

태도가 모호하다… 어장관리한다… 상대를 실망시켰다 등 등의 비판도 있잖아요?

그런 반응에 조금 서운(?)한 점도 있지만… 반면 그 분들의 마음도 충분히 이해할 수 있어요.

이쁘게 봐주던 마음에…기대를 저버린데 대한 실망도 있겠고

방송을 통해 비쳐진 제 모습이 마음에 안들 수도 있는거니까요!

 3박4일이라는 짧은 기간 촬영한거고 서로를 충분히 알만한 시간이 부족했던데다

제가 겉보기와 달리 누구에게 쉽게 마음을 못연다고 해야하나? 많이 조심스러운 성격탓에

제게 관심 주는 두 분에게 매우 조심스러웠고 확신을 주지못했어요.

그러다보니 애매한행동들이 비춰졌고 제 스스로도 갈팡질팡하고있었고…

결과적으로 두분을 서운하게 만들기도했었나봐요ㅠㅠ

하지만 저, 제가 마음이확실해지면 무조건 그사람만 보는성격이에요^^;

 아무튼 방송이 긴 시간에 걸쳐 나가는 동안 시청자분들은 자연스레 감정이입이 되셨을것이고

응원하는 커플도 생기고 응원하는 출연자도 생기고, 반면 미워지는 출연자도 있을수 있고…

(드라마나 영화만 보더라도 악역맡은 분들이 괜히 얄밉고 미워질때가 있잖아요^^!)

그러니까… 제 성격이든 행동이든 제게 주어지는 비판은 제가 감당해야 한다고 생각해요.

다만, 시간이 조금 지나가면 시청자분들께서도 프로그램 특성이나 촬영상황을 조금만 더 이해하시고

출연진들의 입장도 이해하면서 마음들이 조금씩 풀리시길 바라는 마음이랄까요?

 제가 할 일은 앞으로 더 열심히 살고 활동하고 좋은 모습 보여드리는 일이라고 생각해요.

그래서 이번 방송을 통해서 얻은 귀한 교훈을 말씀드리자면,

의도가 어떻든 비춰지는 나의 말과 행동들이 기대에 어긋나면

질책 받을 수 있다는걸 명심하고 언제나 더욱 스스로를 살피며 살아야겠다는 생각을 해봤습니다!

우리 멜로디들 아시겠지만 제가 좀 밝고 긍정적이거든요! 긍정의 힘!!!!!

아마 이번에 흥행에 공을 좀 세웠으니까 제작진분들께서 드라마 하나만 캐스팅해주신다면…

사랑스러운 캐릭터로….. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 더로맨틱아이돌 파이팅ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ!!!!!

 아! 그리고 제가 그입뺏 키스신에, 더로맨틱&아이돌에, 무작정패밀리2까지…

우리 멜로디들 멘붕(?)시키는 프로그램을 많이하고있고 그래서 여러분께 미안한 마음이지만ㅠㅠ

제가 누굽니까? 뭘해도 열심히, 제 한몸 바쳐서!!!! 비투비가 더 알려질 수만 있다면ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

꼭~~~! 앞으로도 이해하고 응원해주기!!!! 약속^^!

끝으로 꼭 말씀드리고싶은건, 감히 제가 대변할 순 없지만 함께 출연했던 8명.

촬영도중 선택의 순간들엔 살짝 서운한 마음들 있었을망정 그게 대결도 아니고 승부도 아닌만큼

모두 많이 즐거웠고 가까워졌고 헤어지기 아쉬워했고, 어떠한 앙금도 없이 잘지내요!!

많이들 친해져서 오랜만에 만나면 가족만나는 느낌이랄까? ㅋㅋㅋ

그러니까 멜로디들은 8명 모두에게 응원을 해주셨으면 좋겠어요~ 부탁드려요^^!!!

곧 설명절이 시작되네요.

이번 연휴엔 멜로디들, 더 로맨틱&아이돌 마지막 방송부터 아이돌육상대회, 아이돌가요무대,

그리고 우리 현식이가 출연하는 출발드림팀 씨름왕전까지!!!

재미있고 신나는 방송 함께 보면서 마음껏 즐겨봐요^^!!

로맨틱 막방 결과 궁금하죠? 궁금하면 오백원ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

본방사수와 함께 해피설날~~~!!!! 다들 맛있는거 많~~~이먹구 비투비생각 많~~~이하기ㅋㅋㅋ

언제나 힘이되주고 응원해줘서 고마워♥

사랑해 멜로디!

p.s – 3만명 넘은 기념! 늦었지만 봐준다~~

그 어디에서도 볼수없었을 희귀한 자료! 초등학교 졸업앨범 사진! ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

(오늘 우리일훈이도 졸업했어요 다들 아시죠^^? 많이들 축하해주세요!!)

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(You guys) Have had a hard time(?) watching it? ㅠㅠ

Of course, there are many who have watched it excitingly…

There are many who felt sad as to why I’m on this program at first,

Some watched after me prettily for the whole month,

while some viewers are disappointed with the conflicts involving me at the later part.

Because of all those reactions, there are many that worried about me..ㅠㅠ

Actually, that recording… I really went with a happy vacation mood.

After being an adult, I’ve entered university, auditions, trainee life, debut and all the subsequent activities…

So to me, it was a 4 days 3 nights Jeju vacation shoot without haven’t to be too concern about it.

I was worried that fans might hate because of the concept of the program too but

when I reach there, the air and scenery were beautiful and…

the staffs there gave really comfortable words to us, it’s like going for an MT together with great sunbaenims!

When I came back from that place, those fun memories still lingered!

(It wasn’t because I was having fun with the female participants, so did you get jealous? Or not!!!!!!!!!!!)

But as it was out on the schedule and when the broadcast starts,

I started to feel sorry after seeing Melodys’ hurt feelings.

How would the reaction be from the broadcast, I was half anticipating and half worrying about it………..

Week by week, as compared with the first season, there were many conflicts and

viewers’ reaction becomes hotter…

I’ve seen criticisms towards colleagues that participated,

and my heart felt heavy ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

But as it goes, it gathered topics and the viewers rating grew higher,

as well as more attention given to the participants, including myself and many more (outcome)…

This program is a success ^0^

The contents was fun, the scenery was pretty and even the background music was romantic too,

Do you feel the tension between the casts?

Even the person involved, I myself, was at unease and nervous, because whatever I’ve seen (on the program) was really interesting!!!

When I’ve become a headlines for some reasons, I felt some burden and

anticipations as I and BTOB get to raise awareness about ourselves slowly ^^

But I’ve received some disappointed responses from the viewers lately.

My vague intentions… my fishery management (T/N: Referring to management of lovers)… making the other party disappointed and many many more criticisms exist right?

I’m a little upset (?) with those reactions but… I can fully understand their feelings on the other hand too.

Some (comments said that they) watched it excitingly… some were disappointed as it didn’t reach expectations will naturally exist too

There might also be some that will dislike me after watching my inconsistent look through the program too!

Going for a this short period of 4 days 3 nights recording, we didn’t have enough time to understand each other.

Should I show my hearts that easily to other people? And so, I have been very cautious about it.

I was really cautious and couldn’t give a confirmation to both of those who show interest in me.

That said, some ambiguous movements was shown and I was torn apart…

In the end, I think I’ve made both of them upset ㅠㅠ

But I, I’m the type that would look at only one person once I’ve given her confirmation ^^;

Anyways, the long broadcast period, viewers will naturally have this feelings grown,

some would support that couple, while some would cheer for the participants, some would hate them too…

(There are moments where you hate a character in a drama or movie too right ^^!)

So…. I think that I have to be responsible for my personality and my actions shown during this vacation.

That being said, as time passed, please understand the characteristic of the program and its recording situation.

Please stand on the participants’ side, and hopefully your hearts can be more open?

I’ve thought of working harder in living and promoting a better look.

So, though I want to say that I’ve learnt many lessons through this broadcast,

My intentions that I have are opposite of those I’ve said and act

I shall remember those comments I’ve received and I’m thinking to try my best to upgrade myself!

Our Melodys might know that but I’m really bright and positive! Positivity!!!!!!!

Perhaps through this, I’ll be able to build some connections, and maybe producers would come to offer me a drama casting…

With a loving character…… ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ The Romantic Hwaiting ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ!!!!!

Ah and also my kiss scenes in Irresistible Lips, The Romantic Idol and even in Reckless Family 2….

I’ve been doing programs that made our Melodys menbong(?)..so I’m really sorry about it ㅠㅠ

Who am I? I do everything diligently, with my whole body!!!! If I can make them know more about BTOBㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

Must~~~! Understand and support me in the future too!!!! Promise ^^!

I want to say ,last of all, representing the 8 participants.

During our shooting, we were slightly upset during our selecting moments, but it wasn’t any competition, and there weren’t any win or lose.

It was fun and everyone became closer, we felt heavy parting ways, and lived our lives without anything more!!

We’ve became close to each other, so if we meet up a while later, will it feel like a family meeting? ㅋㅋㅋ

So please support all 8 of us~ I ask of you ^^!!!

I’m starting to make sense.

Melodys in their holidays, please watch The Romantic & Idols, Idol Championship, Idol Gayo Stage,

and also our Hyunsik’s Dream Team wrestling too!!!

Let’s watch it excitingly and happily together, and have fun with our hearts ^^!!

You’re curious about The Romantic last episode right? If you’re curious, 500 Wonㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

Do stay tune and Happy Seollal~~!!!! Do eat lo~ts of food~~~ and think of BTOB lo~ts ㅋㅋㅋ

Thank you for being my strength and supporting me at all times♥

I love you melody!

p.s – a 30,000 members anniversary! It was late, but I’ll show~

A rare material that can’t be found anywhere! Elementary school graduation album! ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

(Our Ilhoonie graduated today too, everyone know right ^^? Send him lots of congrats!!)

source: MINHYUK
trans: loveindacube.wordpress.com

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